I feel you on the "loner" aspect as I have always been that person, who was thinking independently from the majority surrounding me, but I wasn't the kid dressed in all black preaching that "all things in life suck" (nor am I saying that you come across this way, just for clarification). My separation from the pack usually came from my uncanny knack of being able to see both the good AND bad in any given situation... Most kids don't like it when you disprove the logic they build their wonderful world around. The same goes in the opposite direction when you build up something a group would rather rip apart. I guess it was my ability to separate an emotional attachment involved with a theory that made me ostracized for the normal groups that were commonly seen in my youth.