Haha, nice one.
It's all good, if I held a grudge with everyone on here with which I've had a negative encounter, there'd be no one left to talk to.
(Gets tears in eyes) I LOVE U GUYS!!!
Hi Kajmere, thank you for your message.
I didn't think he was rubbing it in my face really, I just mistook it totally as him hitting continuous digs at A-Train after I thought he had done it enough, and I guess I just saw red then, I come from a family of bullying and help people on the internet and just lose it when I see bullying of any kind, and I totally misinterpreted that as bullying. I know the damage it can do, and though Matt Bloom is not going to be reading this, I also know the damage it can do to the abuser's themselves, living in denial about what they do, which is why I've written all that shite above, because in my own experience and the people I "try" to help, the victim's in these cases are looking for an apology they're never going to get, and above with all that ego mind bollox I've gone on about is pretty much the reason why bullying happens and why bullies actually think they aren't bullies. Get a bit (a lot) carried away trying to educate I guess.
The comment didn't offend me whatsoever, thank you actually, I needed a reality check, and I went off on you in another blog because I thought you were bullying another guy, even if you were in any way, it wasn't my place to get involved, as I said, I just see red when I "think" I see bullying. I really let you have it and I apologize for that, you seem like a good egg from all the other stuff I've read.
Kashdinero, sorry mate, I had you all wrong here. I thought you were just being negative for negatives sake and I apologize. Hopefully you can take some kind of positive experience out of this bell end ranting like a mad man
Cheers Kajmere, Kashdinero.
I don’t mean to butt in, and I’m also not trying to instigate anything, but perhaps this can help resolve this dilemma before it goes further.
After Kash gave his opinion on Bloom, Earthquake, you said you respect his opinion and nothing else has to really be said. Then Kash made this comment:
“I just want to add that I was deeply disappointed with Matt Blooms return. After watching the guy improve beyond anything anyone ever thought he could, I was hoping for a lot more than what he turned out to be in the end. Such a shame/waste.
I also wouldn't have minded having Ryback stay in the main event picture for longer than he did. The way they built him up and demoted him in almost record trims was embarrassing for all involved. Another shame/waste.”
The way I interpreted the above statement (and Kash correct me if I’m wrong) is that Kash was taking a step back from his previous comment that the Tensai gimmick didn’t stand a chance and was kind of saying “Even though his gimmick was a joke, I kind of feel bad for Bloom. He was new and improved but ultimately turned into a waste of talent”.
I thought (and still do think) that Kash was actually cutting Bloom some slack and saying he was disappointed in the way things turned out in a legitimately humble way. Earthquake, I think you took it as him kind of rubbing it in your face after you had already conceded the argument. So this whole thing stemmed from a misunderstanding. Just my 2 cents and I hope this comment didn’t offend either of you.
The ego is a funny thing. It leads lives, completely, everyone says "we all have an ego lol", and dismiss it competely. Why you could just post a video of a professional wrestler saying that wresting is basically stupid but it's fun and that's all it should really be, and someone's ego could go well overboard.
I don't hold any life sermons. But I do give sound advice to people who have been suffering abuse throughout their lives and a big part of the reason they end up nearly killing themselves is because people will not listen to them, and all the people they know, family, friends, even people who consider themselves "well wishers", are just totally ignorant that another human being is suffering because of their ignorance. People are ignorant because of this very thing that they all have: Ego. The ego does a funny thing to the mind, if someone writes a blog pleading for some sanity on a wrestling website some people can take that the wrong way completely. The ego, if something disagrees with it, thinks that whoever has a different opinion is "attacking" it. And it does the most amazing thing as well, when it "thinks" it's being attacked, it returns back in kind with an attack, either warranted but also completely sometimes unwarranted. It is usually the latter. Anyway, this amazing thing it does, let's say I didn't even write this blog and I said I liked Kurt Angle for instance, and then you had to disagree with me and talk about what a fuckhead he has been, that is your ego mind coming into action. If I reply and say "sure everyone has had problems..." and you still go in for the attack on it, it is totally unnecessary. You see, when I say I simply like Kurt Angle, your ego takes offense at that. For what reason, I have no clue, but it takes it as a personal attack, so you attack me. Instead of reasoning "he likes him, I dont, thats that", you have some need to cut me down a size or two. Why is that? Do you ever question yourself anytime you get into an argument over nothing? I doubt you do, because the one thing the ego hates, is to be questioned. It doesn't like to be questioned by others, and it doesn't like to be questioned by the person who is there. Ego is an illusion by the way, you may know that, maybe you don't, but it doesn't exist, it's all in your head. If I was being egotistical here I would say "of course you don't know that, DUH!" or whatever, but I have no clue, you may know all this stuff.
Ego is all built up into images, it builds one image after the other after the other after the other until you reach age 50, wonder what the fuck you have been doing, realize you don't really know yourself, and then it is too late to do anything about your ego. Depression is the fight between ego and soul, it's what life is all about, can you conquer the ego? It's extremely hard, because not only do you have to deal with your own ego, you have to deal with the ego's of all the other people too, such as people who convinced you that Tensai would be a doomed gimmick before it even started and you jumped that bandwagon. How can you possibly know if it was going to fail or not? This is the destructive power of ego, it can bring many great things, but it can destroy so much just because something "offended" it somehow. And back to the mindtrick the ego does after the initial attack, this is the beautiful "ignorance is bliss" part of it, it tricks you into thinking "he deserved it", "he was destined to fail anyway", "everyone else was doing it", "they brought it on themselves", and of course, this goes far beyond wrestling, this just happens to be a wrestling blog but the fundamentals are the same.
So when I talk about how there are real things going on, maybe you are not thinking about the 14 year old girl who is getting ready to top herself because she has been abused because everyone around her believes in some imaginary myth that serves to fulfill their own ego's, "the way they see things", and not what is actually going on. One way people very commonly see things, is that people "bring things on themselves". How would this fictional 14 year old girl have brought on things to become suicidal? Wouldn't have anything to do with the fact she has been abused all her life by her family and everyone outside is too busy seeing things they want to see it, bullying her because they think "she brought it on herself", when the real cold hard fact of the matter is she just needs to talk to one person for 5 minutes. And no one will talk to her, the fact that she is depressed is a bunch of other labels about her being antisocial, ignorant or whatever, when the true fact is that her trust has been scarred and she is totally vulnerable in a world full of wolves. Who are ironically, totally ignorant themselves. In reward for your ignorance of who you really are and others around you (apart from people that can be used for social gain), you get rewarded, by living through your life care free of things that are uncomfortable to face. Such as the amazing question "Am I a bully?" What if you knew that 14 year old girl 10/15 years ago and you were at school with her, and you just ignored the fact that she had a reality, because "she wasn't as cool as you" or some bullshit reason you hide behind, and she killed herself. Nope, nothing to do with me. I'm not talking directly to you about all this by the way, I'm just talking about hypothetical situations.
Ego brings the illusion that there are a lot of things, but there's not, it tells you who to be (and tells you that you are happy) until one day you realize you have no clue who you are and you are married to some girl you barely know, and stuck with two kids. "That's life" eh? That's just some more fantasy bullshit people invent and believe in to protect themselves from the sheer horror of having to get to know who they really are, know the horrible things that they have hidden away all their lives, the things they have denied about how they treated people in the past, the things that shook them to their core that they pretended never happened.
Now I'm preaching. I could go on forever. By the way, I am far from a kook. Just have an incredible interest in human beings, it has served me well, I have helped people understand who they are when nobody bothered to talk to them, just yesterday I got an email from a girl thanking me for saving her from the hell she was in. And I did it all without ego. When you put your ego out of the situation, you can see things from another point of view, and if people are in need of listening, help, you can actually help them because you are listening, you are not seeing things "the way you want to see it", you are seeing things as they really are, and make no mistake about it, that kind of stuff saves lives, I know personally. My simple blog is about enjoying wrestling, because it is meant to be enjoyed. You reply to me about what a washout gimmiick the Tensai thing was, I reply something else and then you give a more detailed correspondence of why you stick by your opinion. I accept it, I respect how you back up your points. I leave it to rest. You have to emphasize though, what a failure this thing was, how it could never ever work in a million years. So i reply, and tell you to save your vitriol for something else. You hit back at me, and rightly so, and I leave you a vid of Dean Ambrose, WHO KNOWS MORE THAN ME (I thought I implied that), you or anyone who has ever been on this website, and he basically backs up my point. So you attack, call me a preacher of some kind. You see, you could be writing all about Tensai several times now, when he debuted, what you have written about him here, and in the future, and it is okay for you to write the same amount or more than me on a topic such as that than the kind of shit I'm going into right now? I know this is a strictly wrestling website and I'm breaking "the rules" probably, but this is life, the type of website you are on is just hiding behind bullshit from the uncomfortable truth. And same with wrestling talk, and opinions in general, they can hide behind all the bullshit in the world that they want but in the end of the day it is all bullshit. This website is bullshit, what happens in wrestling is bullshit, you talking about wrestling is bullshit, and same with me writing all this, it is still bullshit. If this was ego oriented I would not be calling my whole spiel here bullshit, I would be smugly sitting here sniffing my own farts at how "insightful" I think I sound. It's all bullshit, every single but of it, and that's fine to enjoy, but when you get very very in to it all, you are discrediting yourself, you are buying into the bullshit, taking a personal interest in it, and we do this because we do not want to be alone at night, face those uncomfortable questions, we want to be "happy" with distracting ourselves with things, like wrestling. So I could have gone into this, but I know, I'm "obviously" nuts. The guy who's telling people to just sit back and enjoy the product, and support it. Not to spend their time going crazy over things they can't control.
I help people for a living, with my interest in the human mind, growing knowledge of the human mind (which you don't learn from books, like everything else, you do it by: Questioning everything, including yourself). It's a real joy to help people, so this sounds insane to you I know, but I have helped people turn their lives around that the "good" people of the world trample into the ground because they didn't have a seconds thought about who they might be hurting. There is so much bullshit to recover people from, it is vast, and one of the big reasons is that every bully in the world claims and says the same thing until they absolutely have to eat humble pie "I'm not a bully". No one is a bully, we are in a world where there are STOP! bullying campaigns that are all the rage now and the people involved are the biggest bullies of all, they get involved just so they can feed their ego so they can "convince" themselves they are a good person/people, so they can continue on bullying people and living in denial of ever doing it, by verbally and physically assaulting them, by just ignoring the fact that they have as much right to be alive as they do, millions of ways, that their ego tells them "the person brought it on themself" so they can sleep like babies at night and not have to deal with the very real truth that they are probably a giant asshole. Just like all the fans who ruined the Tensai gimmick say to themselves "they deserved it" while not caring about the people whos lives were severely altered because they couldn't had an involvement. This is life I know, but you play your part in making Vince McMahon get in a bad mood because he couldn't control his ego and probably fire someone who was involved in trying to get the gimmick over and ruining his life. Too deep yeah? This is real though Kashdinero. Think about what your ego does to someone, who you're "better" than or some stupid notion like that. Ego doesn't like the truth, that's why you don't like what I'm saying or what I have been saying. The truthful bits at least, not the bits where you think I'm saying "I'm better than you", I've never said that, and wouldn't ever, because I'm not, and you're not better than me either. The only thing that I'm better at is that I'm able to enjoy wrestling for what it is, it is beyond my control, so why get absolutely apoplectic about that kind of thing? It's entertainment, here to entertain. And I wish some people could just see that. But this is my gripe, I should get over it really. I just hate how people are so closed off about things, when really it is so much easier to just be positive about things. People love being negative though, and that's why I help people, because people would rather be negative in their various ways then help someone who needed their help desperately. Someone has just committed suicide, and it is either because of a bunch of shit they did or that no one had any interest in just listening to them without having to chip in with guilt trips like "other people have it worse", or have to have their opinion be heard. People who are suicidal just need people to listen to them and not interrupt, they get that way because no one is interested in listening to them in the first place and they end up doing it (or attempting to do it) because of a bunch of fucked up trauma shit in their head that they don't even know exists. So when I say to people stop getting mad about wrestling, I mean it, you're just projecting the things that are deepest inside your mind on something that will not have any benefit on your life, you are letting whatever trauma you have build up and up instead of dealing with it, and it's bad enough not being able to speak to someone but it's even worse not knowing you have trauma in your brain that is worsening your life. And you don't know it there because only injury victims or people who are coping with the loss of loved ones are "allowed" to have trauma, that is bullshit hidden away from absolutely everyone, every one of us has trauma, most people unleash it onto others to get rid of it, alot of people keep it to themselves, but we all have it, when it goes undetected it builds up and up until it kills. And it's not "popular" to talk about or whatever. I think I'll stop now. I don't give a shit about your image or anyone elses image, I give a shit about people. Now make me out to be any kind of thing you want to make me out to be, but I'm just me, and to me you're just you. And that's all we are.
^Everybody listen to Earthquake. Nobody post on an Internet forum unless its to say how indifferent you are to everything. Heaven forbid one should feel any sort of passion about what we're watching, the travesties that occurring RIGHT NOW IN YOUR VERY OWN LIVES deserve your attention way more.
Heh. Save the preaching for those life sermons you must hold weekly at your local town hall, mate. Especially for me; as you rightfully pointed out--I KNOW MORE THAN ANYONE ON THE INTERNET!!!
Originally Posted by Kashdinero
OK, as far as you trying to, like, educate folk with how they should view wrestling, cool. Whatever. KYO. As for the rest of all that jargon you just typed. Jog the fuck on, mate.
Try not to take things typed on the Interwebs so fucking literal, and, please, avoid giving out lessons in life. I don't think it suits you. Or to put it another way, you fucking suck at it.
"Deeply disappointed" as far as wrestling goes. No slitting of wrists, or reaching for a bottle of pills were ever considered. If I wanted to reiterate a point, in-case I felt that there a cerain part of the point I wanted to get across/stress, there's absolutely no reason I shouldn't. For you to knock me for doing so after pouring your heart and soul into a blog/rant is quite frankly hypocritical. Just because you posted a blog it doesn't make you lord and ruler of the comments section below it. Do yourself a favour; slither back into whatever hole it was that you've been hiding in for the past couple of years, because your attitude is far too fickle for you to have any credibility in what you're posting.
How's that for overkill? Twat.
Alright, obviously not going to get through to ya, just listen to this, guy he knows far more than ANYONE ONE THE INTERNET. FAR MORE.
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